why school sometimes sucks

ok so I think school is meant to drain out all your creativity and make you into a laborer. like, every time i come home from school, i just lay on my bed and dont have the energy to do anything thats meaningful to me. i used to care about getting good grades, and I still kind of do, but I now see the bigger picture and have realized that i rather spend time doing what I love than waste it on doing hw or stressing myself out over grades. i wanna have a good future, but I also don't want to waste the present by constantly worrying about the future. that's why, today, instead of studying, i watched a movie with my mom and went to the gym. my main priority is to be happy right now at this moment, i dont want to spend my whole life focusing on the future. they tell us that "success" is getting into a good college and earning money (although its partly true), i think real success is creating new connections with people, having new fun experiences, working on yourself, and spreading/receiving love. i'll find a way to financially support myself, unfortunately i have to play by the system to survive. i won't let them control everything about my life!!