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Hello! I feel like a lot is happening in my life right now. I just feel as if I am drowning in all of this pressure I am being put under by my family. We are in the middle of moving to a new house and I guess the way my family likes to cope with stress is through yelling at each other. I'm not sure why everyone has an attitude when you could just be patient and understanding. I already know that this move isn't going to be as smooth as it could be, but I know that through all of the work we are putting towards it, It will be just fine.
My family is also not respecting the fact that I am now finally becoming the person who I want to be. I am transgender and they know about my name and pronouns but they just wont use them. Whenever I try to correct them, they always try to make it seem like its my fault? I mean like, if you can remember that someone switched their last name cause they got married, then in my book, you can also remember that someone changed their first name. Then they say that it's too difficult to remember and I'm being selfish about my choice. I'm just not sure what to do here so for now, I'm ignoring it and going to go to the doctor and get myself started on testosterone.
I am so thankful that my boyfriend is here by my side and understands what I am going through. He has been my #1 supporter and I just love him so much. I'm also very happy that I am moving closer to him so I'll be able to see him more often! But at times, he feels so bad about himself and that he feels like he isn't doing anything for our relationship, which isn't true. He is doing a lot for our relationship and some of it, he doesn't even that he is doing. He has shown me how love and to be loved. I just wish he didn't deprive himself like that.
Later today, my sister and I are going to my dads apartment to finish up on taking some stuff down for him so when he comes back to get the rest of his stuff to go back to Illinois, it will be all ready for him. I just want to take this opportunity to just get out of the house and relax for a bit and to listen to some good tunes.
If you are reading this, thank you! Have a good rest of your day and I'll see you next time!
- Finn
"But you can only
lie about who you are
for so long without
going crazy."
— Ellen Wittlinger
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