my first poem in a while

life feels like a dream in the bad way
where I'm dissociating and numbing myself so the edges get softer
circular
i reach out and graze my finger tips against endless corners
trapped
in a bubble of my own shame
it shrinks when i talk
so uncomfortable
so confined 
im screaming but no one can hear me
floating away floating away
softly drifting into the open eager mouth of the atmosphere
swallowed whole
till im nothing again