03-18-2022 • First Entry - What Happened After I Graduated...

Let me talk to y'all about what happened right after I graduated from high school, cause shit got interesting. Ok so, first of all, I don't have my license, and I still don't have it to this day, but I got a job at CVS as a retail store clerk, which my grandma would take me to. It was pretty fun but it was also a big store with lots of activity and memorization. At the time, my mom had married this asshole like when quarantine hit and I just don't like him at all. He's an alcoholic, lazy dumbass, to keep it short. 

Two months after I got my job, I moved into my dads apartment to get away from my mom and stepdad. It was pretty cool cause I got the opportunity to transfer to a different CVS and be more independent in a better environment. It was kinda difficult getting too and from work because I had to take the city bus, but ultimately I didn't mind. I also connected with the man of my dreams on a dating app during this time, which is a really cool thing. Another two months pass, I got word from my dad that my grandpa who lives in Illinois isn't doing too good physically and that I would either need to move out there to help him or move back in with my mom. Note that I haven't seen my grandpa ever since my mom and dad got divorced, which was like 12-13 years ago. 

I decided to move to my grandpas house and spend time with him cause I didn't want to deal with my mom and stepdad again. I couldn't get a transfer again cause CVS didn't like how I kept on wanting to transfer everywhere, but it was fine cause I helped my grandpa out with his bus business. My stepmom was out there a month before me because she works from home and her work doesn't care where she is when working. My dad stayed in the apartment with all of the stuff until winter ended; cause moving in winter is a bitch. 

Spending time with my grandpa was probably one of my most best decisions I could've possibly made cause he is such a good soul. He swears, he watches tv in the living room every night, and he listens to old music. His favorite song is "Swinging on a Star" by Bing Crosby.  He helps people who aren't as fortunate in life like him by giving them rides to places for free, loaning money to them, and just doing other kind things and doesn't expect anything in return. He is definitely someone to look up to. The only things I wasn't too keen about him is the fact that he is racist and homophobic, which is kinda awkward cause I'm in a relationship with a man. 

When winter ended, I decided that I was just going to move back to my moms house because my dad took over my job with my grandpa and I felt like I was no longer needed over there. I also felt trapped there cause we were in the middle of nowhere and I don't have my license to travel anywhere. 

I am now currently at my moms house again. My stepdad is still a prick but a little bit less of one, I do have to admit. We'll see if that changes. I am now closer to my boyfriend and we actually met for the first time in person at Disneyland! We had such a wonderful time and I feel like I want to stay with him for the rest of my life. He makes me so happy.

My mom recently also bought a house that we are starting to move into this Tuesday, which I am so excited because I will be closer to my boyfriends house so I will get to see him more often! I am also attending college this fall to study in Environmental Science. I'm also planning to get my license to explore places around me and maybe even do a roadtrip with my boyfriend to Illinois and visit my grandpa. I also need a job because my bank account do be looking empty currently... haha.

But yeah, my life has been a lot right now and hopefully things will start to settle down soon. I'm just so grateful for the experiences that has happened in my life through this time and can't wait to make more memories. 

"They always say 

time changes things, 

but you actually

 have to change them 

yourself."

- Andy Warhol