7/23/21 Well, If You Wanted Honesty

It’s been two weeks since I lost my job, and it’s been very disheartening. The job search makes me feel, at times, that I am essentially worthless. That I am just wasting my time doing something that will lead no where. My head has been a very dark place in that same time. I am growing scared of money situations, and what COULD happen if things are prolonged. 

Today it’s raining. I love the rain, it fits my mood. Normally I’d go over to my parents place to do some job applications, and it’s nice. It also gets me out of the house. So for today, I will just be sitting around the apartment doing nothing of substance. Kind of a bummer. 

I think I may have stated in a blog prior about my current tribulations about music stuffs. I often feel like I have been treated as a second option there. It’s like, let’s ignore Shane and his projects, because ::insert reason here.:: Funny thing, I hear everything. Luckily, I don’t listen to those types. I know what I have done, and what I will do. It’s just a matter of time. The product I have will be immensely better than what is getting put out there. 

Luckily, no one reads this at this point. So, these are basically secrets. Until I decide to be more public about why I am writing. It could be good for me, the band, and even this platform. Who knows. I just going to write.