𝑪𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒔 (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

so in all my years of life, i always had a crush, and if in a year i didn't had a crush for like 1 month, it would've been so strange, because i like the feeling of liking someone u know, i like going to sleep while thinking about them, i like imagine fake scenarios with them, and i think that's why i like having a crush so much.

well now i think i should not have a crush, why?

because my crush is one of my cosest friend.

backstory, in 2020 i actually started liking her, and i ended up confessing to her, and as u can imagine, she said that she saw me just as a friend, so we stopped talking for a few months, and then in 2021 we started to talk again, and now we have one of the best friendship. The only problem is that, for me liking her again, its super problematic, i know that if i cofess is not gonna end in a good way, u know she alrealy rejected me one time.

another problem its how she act around me, she always make jokes, "sexual jokes" that are intended for me, but not a bad way, i like when she does that, because sh's always been my "sexual desire" an because f that i learnt hoe to put a shield on, so can't get hurt anymore, but honestrly idk what do to anymore, because im scared im not gonna be able to like someone else for a long tim.

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!$Mario$¡

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that have happened to me and it's the worst feeling

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fr, im always scared of letting her know unconsciously.

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