!! vent 1 !!

it's been some time since i've felt this truly alone. idk how to describe it, but it's kind of calming at the same time. sort of a liminal space in my mind yk? it's nice not having an FP right now, but it's also so painful because i feel so goddamn lost. i just want a person. i want MY person. idk who my person is yet, but i want them more than anything. to be in love without the constant stress and fixations leading to an explosion that leaves us both in ash. i want a love like beast boy and raven. best friends, but so much more. ouchie