what's the point

Like...I'm stuck home all the time because it costs money to be or do anything anywhere else, there's nothing to do at home but go online or work in the yard, which I repeat every day. Like, just doing the same exact thing every single day all year.

It's boring as hell.

Meanwhile its like, looking at crisis after crisis out the windows that I have no control over, like the fact that a billion animals died in the past two weeks because of the "heat dome" caused by climate change, and over 700 people died. Like that's a dif conversation though.

It's like watching people and the world die around you while you sit at home unable to do anything. Can't buy anything because everything costs too much.

I had a crown break off months ago and have just had an exposed nerve in my mouth because I can't go to the dentist either. And I'm not even broke. We used to be broke. It used to be hard to pay bills and get food and have hot showers. But I still can't go to a dentist and am not free to do what I want, because it is outrageously priced and dental insurance is a fucking joke, that it would require thousands of dollars of a difference in income just to get a root canal or get a new crown.

And if this isn't even struggling, this is just what life looks like, why the hell am I here? why fuckin bother, ykwim? no matter how much better you do, if you're not upper middle class or rich life is hell. the only difference is at least you're not starving i guess? lol.

bills, bills, bills, i can't get an education, i can't get the job i want, i can't do what i want or buy what i want, i can't go anywhere, and this is what the best i can do will always look like, it's always been like this and it's going to be like this until i die.

tbh, what the hell? what's the point? corps want me to work 9 to 5 for this and be thankful for it? eat shit. "nobody wants to work anymore" couldn't fuckin guess why.

lol sorry for ranting i just hate it here