My mental health lol

today has been soooooo stressful i hated it soo much. Period 1 i had geography and the weekend had been sooo stressful with my mental health and starting to self harm again so i went to my guidance counsellor and i suck at talking about things so she got me to write it down which is easier for me and i wrote like 3 sides of a4 paper just going off about how shitty i feel + gender dysphoria and my home life and now i have a meeting with her on thursday ;-; im so anxious about it because what if she tells my mum which will not end well but ive made it quite clear under any ircumstances i do NOT want my parents to find out about anything because then id just feel alot worse lol