The Devil’s Game

I try to rise above the water but gravity pulls me back in

The weight on my shoulders has me so close to drowning

So much trauma from my past

Insecurities and trust issues, I’m an outcast

I hold grudges, I commit sins

Stripped of my dreams, I can’t cope with

All of what I’ve lost and felt 

And witnessed with young eyes, so much hurt I’ve been dealt

I just can’t seem to let it go

I walk with demons and no one knows and it’s all too easy to hide it when my voice is froze

I’ve become accustomed to my anxieties, an unhealthy cope

Being afraid of what might hurt me gives me hope

That maybe for the first time in my life, I’ll feel safe

But I know it’s all just the devil’s game

-Tori Russell