So leaving this here this is so sad I get harassed off of websites. Because I'm different. I'm strange. I'm usual. I had a traumatic life that still effects me till this day and age. Why can't people treat each other with an act of kindness or be gentle? Like why? People always gotta bully and harass people and call them names and pick on them. Like why do you feel to need to do someone that been through Hell in your life. Just because you don't believe their story doesn't give you the right to personally attack them. People have a huge miss understanding I'm thirsty and I'll do anything for attention and friends. No I don't that goes for selfies as well I'm more focused on my health and my well being more than I'm waking up to take a photograph my mind can't simply grasp the concept of selfies everyday like why? What is the propose and point? Is there any logical reason for this behavior to take one everyday. My man focus should be my health and take care of myself. Just because I take supplements like collagen. Which is working wonders for my IBS and upset stomach and I had no idea collagen was good for stomach problems also I'm slowly noticing my dark circles are not as bad as they were before. I also take Apple Cider but will be taking Vitamin A soon as Apple Cider was my main go to for wellness/stomach issues. Multi vitamins. Also Fish Oil/Borage Oil will be going through either A Cod oil or Alaskan Salmon fish oils as I would like to take 1 a day not two. But back on subject even though that keeps me healthy that doesn't really eliminate the fact that I need to take care of my FACE besides splashing water on my face! So what I'm thinking about instead of SELFIES SELFIES SELFIES SELFIES! Is self care! Not some damn selfie! I just found out the body wash I use acts like a face wash I had no idea. I also need to exfoliate my face at the start of Monday and Sunday for a reset. I need to research an affordable all natural face scrub none of that St. Ives shit unless their gentlest formula the oatmeal scrub/mask is some good shit then okay if not I'll look elsewhere. I also don't use moisturizer which is very bad. The issue with facial moisturizer is....hard to find one that honestly sinks into my skin and not just lay on the top layer. Ponds has failed me and caused me to have zits Queen Helene made me break out. Olay was okayish but their sunscreen is amazing for their sensitive skin but I only use this while going outside....so I really need to start finding a gentle facial cleanser as well and wash my face every morning and put a facial moisturizer on my face for a few hours and wipe that off with my body wash that is facial. There is probably some hidden gems at Dollar Tree maybe there is some face moisturizer I can use besides wasting money left and right on shit.
https://www.target.com/p/dove-men-care-relaxing-eucalyptus-cedar-hydrating-body-wash-soap-18-fl-oz/-/A-80170466#lnk=sametab for the price and 18 oz plus this functions like a facial wash and smells divine the price is fair to me and also all plant base and Dove went all cruelty free for people wondering. I was I can go cruelty free on my sensitive toothpaste but most organic brands I've found all use some kind of whiting agent and that STILL HURTS MY TEETH even though the gentle whiting is for sensitive! I still hurt! Also this body wash smells divine and also doesn't cause any itch at all! Also for the Dove body wash their website say for face so I'm going to go by what their website says not some retail store.
https://www.dove.com/ca/en/men-care/washing-and-bathing/body-wash/men-care-relaxing-eucalyptus-oils-cedar-body-face-wash.html
https://www.target.com/p/dove-men-care-relaxing-eucalyptus-cedar-hydrating-body-wash-soap-18-fl-oz/-/A-80170466#lnk=sametab I want to try this when the bottle runs out of the other stuff because this smells also so divine and both products look awesome like metallic swirl pattern and stylish!
I also think Dove shampoo is better than Herbal Essence my hair hates that shit and Garnier Whole Blends makes some fantastic conditioners! Their Olive Oil is like butter on the hair and Their Royal Honey is amazing! Also Garnier cares about the bees in this products you can look on here. So I feel happy they're doing something about the bee population etc!
But back on topic let me state what I was talking about on topic on a website called Goth Wire I don't recommend this website at all. This website harasses and trolls people and bullies them off a website and post tons of memes and the women there are too worried about being in a beauty contest etc.
What many people don't know about me is I'm a victim of online dating horror story a.k.a. POF. I was a victim of those dating online gone wrong. Many people think this is fake and so on but let's begin what happened
However the one thing I never cleared upon with anyone was I met my second ex on POF yes....I was stupid and naïve in my early 20's I used to go into their meetings. Yes what happened to me was a online horror story. He was fine until he got hooked up on drugs and then all of a sudden he stopped acting like a human....but till this day at age 28. I'm still traumatized about what happened in 2017. What happened in my childhood emotional neglect the only kind I got was from my mom. Nobody took my high school bullying serious the only one that did was my mom. Her words will be forever drilled in my mind. Sorry I could never help you but this is a thorn in my heart your dad told you no I can't home school you and I'm not allowed to transfer you. I was forced to suffer until I couldn't take it anymore. I had to tell my SSI provider that I mentally collapsed in school not suicidal. That's when I started acting ''different and psychological different'' I changed I was ''broken''
Tell me how any person on earth would be okay after this.
After my ex was on drugs:
He would throw me in the bathtub if I wouldn't have sex with him or shave down there which he forced my hands onto the shower as he shaved me down there until I had red bumps all over down there. I only trim.
He one time pointed a gun at his mother and he also asked me to buy lock picks to go murder his band mates
He also whacked me with a plank on the head as he was pissed off by someone he also destroyed his mother's house in a rampage
He made me get into a car wreck which nobody knows in real life about this I can't voice myself to say this....he went into a rage as someone pissed him off and sped the gas pedal I refused to go to the doctor in fear they would call my parents and he would probably kill me at that point but I only had bruises all over my body and in massive pain
So as naïve as I was I fled to my parents house thinking we're an hour and a half he won't come get me....
Well on May 1st he waited for my dad to leave at work and I had my son was only a few years old was there. So he was trying to beat the door down so my mother told me to hide in the closet to call 911 and my son hid. So all I heard was a bunch of struggling and tubs crashing I heard everything. So while I was calling 911 I needed a police like right away and hurry! The 911 despatcher said that there is police on their way over and just try to be on the phone as long as you can well I heard my ex coming....to the hall and I had to come out....and hang up and put the phone in my pocket....well I saw my mother's blood smeared all over the wall and I didn't see her and my son was not and my ex held me down and said in some demonic voice and not normal ''I'm sorry I had to do this and sorry to be a monster but I want you to be with me forever'' as I struggled to break free the police busted the door open and I threw my phone and I saw my ex drawing his gun out as I fled to the neighbors
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