Trying this out....

Okay.... so this is me trying this out for the first time. I'm thinking about starting a blog about any and every thing. I'm just not sure how to start. I'm a nice person who has been through a lot in my somewhat short life. So I have a very hard time getting my words to come out the way I want them to. I have a hard time trusting people. And to be honest I have no friends, all the friends I did  have ended up stabbing me in the back and expected me to be there when they needed me but when I needed them they were gone. So I thought I wont hurt me and I am all that I need and it's been that way for awhile. I cringe at everything I say and I always over think about what I say. I'm an awkward person. One thing I have learned lately is that I'm a very codependent person, and in my head I always feel like I have to take care of everyone and that I have to do everything...... I'm slowly trying to fix this cause I need to be there to take care of me. I know this is probably weird but I felt like I needed to get that off my chest (and i honestly did know what else to write about)