I hate math grades went down

I hate math I hate math I hate math. If you a tutor !!hit!! !!me!! !!up!! i always try so hard in math but it’s never good enough. My grade just keeps going down and I don’t know what to do. I need help badly. I can’t wait for summer and not need to worry about all of this. I’m so tired I just want to give up but I dont want to disappoint my mom. All I can do it just pray it gets better because I lost of my chances the quarter is over I’m done for. Now I’m I have to go to sleep with this annoying thought on my back. goodnight guys.  if anyone is even listening..