I miss violin tbh (｡T ω T｡)

So like many others I played violin from middle school to high school, right? 7 years of one instrument and making music my entire personality, just to leave it all behind after graduation! Since then I feel like I've been picking up more and more hobbies/instruments to fill that void violin left, but it's so hard to return to violin itself because of all of the trauma and anger I haven't confronted yet (￣▽￣*)ゞ.  I've literally got tear stains on my instrument eheh, RIP the varnish! Besides that, my strings are nearly 4 years old at this point and I've never gotten my bow re-haired so it's just a whole process I have to go through to even get back into playing again. 

I still miss playing. So so bad. I often go back and watch score videos on youtube or just listen to pieces we played back in highschool, and like it does help!! But damn does it make me miss playing!!! Maybe I'll say fuck it and just start playing regardless of the maintenance I have to perform...? Oh god what would I even play (╥﹏╥)

 IDK besties, yall feel the same conflict at all???? Can't just be me LMAO

Whatever, till next time <3

Love you bye!!!!