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i´m constantly moving from thing to thing and distraction to distraction so I never have to focus on on my problems. I´m so worried about everything and how much i´ve messed up, but I would rather dig myself into a deeper whole than face my fears. i´m so worried that it´s crippling me from being able to fiy my problem which only makes things worse. I wish I had the willpower to walk away from the things I know are bad for me but at this point it´s all I´ve ever known and the familiarity of making things worse is so much more comfortable than the anxiety and worry I have to face when i start to try to tackle my problems.There´s so much going on allat once that I just want to hide but hiding only makes this monster bigger.