A difficult time

Late after midnight I was awake. Actually drifting off into sleep for the most part. I woke up at seven forty am. Several minutes after I noticed something with Angel. Her heart beat was unusually fast again. I picked Angel up to check on her. I heard a graunting sound from her. Angel has never made those type of noises. Most of the time she's not vocal. Meaning she doesn't make noises a rabbit make very often. Another thing very noticeable was that Angel nearly jumped out my arms. It's alarming due to the fact she hasn't done that before. I called the veterinarian office at eight am. I told the receptionist about Angel's medication. I was thinking the medication would help with her heart rate. I picked her up only to realize it was heavy breathing as well. It appears that the fluid in her lungs showed up again. The medication Angel was prescribed was deemed useless in my opinion. She did better without it. We knew Angel has a serious heart condition. Instead of telling us at the appointment back in April. Dr. K told us the devastating news at her convenience. She knew Angel's diagnosis during the visit. Angel has cancer in her lungs. Now she wants to remove the fluid from Angel's lungs. Instead we decided to contact another veterinarian in our area. We don't feel comfortable taking Angel on a long driving trip. It's too critical at this point. I've spoken to the other veterinarian doctor an hour later over then phone. She mentioned that Angel will need to get examined by her concerning the lung fluid. We don't know what's going to happen. I'm already prepared for the worst because so much bad has happened. I really hate being pessimistic. I tried my best to be positive in this awful situation. I feel beyond terrible inside. Angel doesn't deserve this at all. There have been many memories and times. I'm extremely grateful that Angel was with us for ten years. I'm faced with reality that things may not go our way. To see my nephew upset really made me felt awful. He loves playing with Angel. We are all upset about her. She has been a positive presence in our lives. I don't expect everyone to understand my point. To some Angel is a rabbit. For us Angel is family and means a lot. She will never be replaced. I meant the same with Angelina and Max. They all have a special place no matter how much time goes by. I'm saddened by what happened. I also went to a doctor's appointment with my mom. I decided to go inside the check up room with mom. She will have to get a mri and other test done. I hoping things will get better for my mom. My youngest sister went to the hospital. She will have to go to a specialist doctor within a week. For May twenty fifth it wasn't a good day. And I expect today on May twenty six to be far worst. Angel has to see a veterinarian doctor. I didn't get much sleep. Instead I stayed awake mostly writing. Peace until next time.