idk

Recently been in a weird state of mind where i just almost cry or get sad for no reason, I just stare of in to the world wondering what went wrong at my life at 13, I found out my exe gf only use to me when she's bored or horny it still destroy's me knowing she did that, I always thought of suicide but can't do it because you know got family a pet couple of friends and to see if it get's any better really, I'm not in school nor online school i wish i was tbh would make me feel not useless, I just be playing elden ring and zoning off then i just watch youtube 24/7 and pet my cat.