First Post xoxo

Welcome to my profile/first blog post on here. I was really excited to join this platform because lately I've been finding that it's near impossible to remove myself from my preexisting online presence, and even after deletion of multiple accounts across platforms (twitter, tiktok, tumblr, instagram, etc.) My history still lingers in my mind, and while I grow as a person, the familiarity of the sites from my youth, and even my pseudo-youth from under a year ago hinder my ability to see myself in a new light online. Don't get it twisted, I don't have anything truly regrettable among my online history; I have never done anything to be hated by the masses or reported off a social media app. I have simply existed as my younger self online, and I've spent the rest of my teenage years trying to chase the high of a new platform-- learning the ropes, finding new people, friends, "friends", and curating a fresh online presence that I will ultimately grow to hate just as much as all the others once my presence grows stagnant, no matter how hard I convince myself that this time, I will stick it out; this time is something to be proud of. Maybe this time will be different, I tell myself every time. So I say once again, with a sickening sense of self awareness and vomit-inducing levels of optimism, that this time will surely be different.