today i am orange

Today I am the colour of orange. Not the vibrant orange that would be painted in a sunset. No, today I am burnt orange. Heavily, heavily burnt. Like the amber gemstone, I am hardened. Hardened forever perhaps. I’ve shut down, all emotions are fleeting. I feel nothing, I think nothing, I am nothing. Yet at the same time, I feel like a leaf in the wind. One of a vibrant mix; a concoction of colours such as green, yellow, and especially bright orange. I am a leaf in the wind - calm and serene. Trying to fly away from the world’s hardening grasp. I am running. Running from the anger that has consumed me. This anger which was once an uncontrollable fire, leaving behind nothing in its trail. It is now ever so slowly dying out. Yet it’s left my heart orange rather than red. Orange and burnt my heart now is. Orange and burnt my heart shall be.