Biphobia

I have realized recently how much i have struggled with internalized biphobia. its not the same as internalized homophobia or at least what you think of when you think of that. I dont hate my attraction towards women i hold no issue with being gay quite the opposite. ive always had this issue where I am constantly trying to feel/look gayer and i used to have the mindset where i could never live without dating a woman but I could live without dating a man. I have dismissed and diminished my attraction towards men at the encouragement of the people around me in order ot feel "gay enough". I have done as much as I can to turn myself into a lesbian and ignore my sexuality especially when I was in a relationship with a woman but now I am single and talking to a guy, a guy I like and its such a strange realization that I am bisexual and that is valid regardless of who i am with or how I present myself. has anyone else struggled with this.