It's gonna be my birthday in just a few days

and I have no family and hardly any friends so its always tough on me with birthdays with hardly anyone to celebrate with and no gifts haha!

but even more so when you have the milestone bdays like your 30th! 

It's sad and can be quite lonely :( 

and i want to treat myself but I am broke all the time so even I can't really get myself a birthday present its so sad, I recently graduated from a diploma course that I have been doing for some time now online and i put so much hard work and effort into it and I couldn't even find joy and celebration in that because I wanted to do something for myself to celebrate but I literally couldn't afford anything its really hard to live in this world sometimes.