Today I Can

So our buyers for our house are sticking with it after the inspection, which is good news since the last buyers backed out at that point. We do need to fix some things on the house that they found in the inspection which might be a bit costly, but it should be okay. We have to replace our electrical panel, get some wiring placed in a protective covering (metal), have some outlets replaced because they don't have grounding for the third prong, and have our HVAC stuff serviced. Silver lining? That means we get the house we wanted! I'm quite excited about that. 

I can't remember if I mentioned my daughter's medical thing yet or not but we have been jumping through some hoops trying to find out what is going on with her and it turns out that she may have pediatric Sjogren's Syndrome. The messy part? They're not confident that is what it is. They're doing bloodwork that can take 7-10 days to get back so of course I'm sitting here on edge wondering. Silver lining? At least they didn't say, "That's cancer" or something. I'm still hoping that doesn't happen to be what is going on. I just hope they figure it out and my baby is okay. (She's not actually an infant, but both of my children will always be my "babies")

I don't really have much of an update on my brother's situation. Not a whole lot has changed, but they haven't called or texted me again yet so I'm assuming (and hoping) that there haven't been any big fights over there at my mom's house. My therapist gave me some good tools to try to navigate that situation some more if it gets intense again. So, I'm super thankful for that and I feel more prepared. 

You know what's really funny? As I'm sitting here typing this, I remember when I had a Xanga and complained about school, my mom, and relationship woes all the time. Well, that and depression. My life is so incredibly different now - though I do still complain about my mom. :) 

Looking back on my life, I'm honestly so thankful for where I am at today. I smile about 300% more. ha My life doesn't feel miserable. I have hopes, dreams, goals, options. I have an anti-depressant/anti-anxiety med. I have a wonderful partner, and great kids. Things are good.

Of course life will always be a rollercoaster of ups and downs, and some really scary bumps - but I think I can handle it. At least, today I can. 

-Rachel