Loneliness

Last night I cried. I cried because I realized that the reason I have a void inside of me because I am missing that one person who I can share my every thought to and who will reply back. Someone who can see me completely authentically. I think I would be considered a person with a lot of friends but all of these friendships come with a set of rules. I need to project myself in a way that is considered socially acceptable. I can't share my thoughts that are too shocking or not suitable for the setting. When I start a topic of conversation I need to assess our level of friendship. I analyse their behaviour and show bits of my personality that I think they'll accept, but nothing more. I often think I crave a romantic relationship and maybe that is true as well but at my core all I need is someone who I can share a true bond with.