Waiting...

I am currently waiting for my boyfriend to call me. He has been playing with his friends and he usually calls me at 12 or 1. We didn't get to call today because he went somewhere with his family. He has been very tired mentally and physically. I tell him that if our relationship is whats causing him part of his tiredness then that we can take a break. He always thinks i want to break up with him because of the stupid things i say. I really dont want to. I tend to overthink alot. Too much. He has female friends. Nothing bad. I have guy friends. Fair. But there are these two specific friends that really make me overthink. One of them is my best friend since 2nd grade. I do not trust anyone at this point. They are beautiful. They are perfect. M and L. L is beautiful. She is skinny. Smart. Funny. Has good style. She is way more than i am. I am not saying that if you arent these things you arent beautiful. I dont even know you and I already know you are perfect and lovely. I just..idek. But eh i have to deal with it since when i ask they act as if i am crazy. Oh well. I will just have to wait and see if my overthinking was right again:)