my struggle with spending

AHHHHHHHHH! i am restricting myself from buying anything this month and it's so hard. i buy things to make me happy, and i want to be happy, so i want to buy something... now! i'm struggling to not just treat myself right now and buy some laruku clothing i've been wanting for awhile. omg, i almost even bought $30 POSTER! all because it was 1995 tetsuya with his ESP TFR-1. like, i'm struggling, badly! oh..... the temptations..