Solitary Sincerity’s

Your every secret deny all that I have ever known

a mind a thousand fragments, a burning enmity between the unmatched fractures 

Rendering me so disoriented in this,  relentless whirlpool of every bitter word that passes your sullen lips 

Were every room holds a ticking bomb 

Eruptions piercing each other 

I am an unvoiced figure between two fires, 

A flame that emulates my clandestine contractures 

But you will never know, 

Never once will your demented speculation feel the misery that it had so carefully fabricated 

My judgment, by you,had been indoctrinated 

Now I stand, no thoughts of my own to be contemplated 

Helpless in this armoured war that I was exposed to 

This absolute strife , heedless and uncontrolled 

It’s too late for dismal apologies, 

For the harm was too severe to finally thaw 

Because, in reality we’ve seen it all before 

And yet my screaming consternations 

stay within closed doors 

My voice, frequently ignored 

Stillness

Hostility

Absurdity

Executed to feel  totally, and utterly 

Alone