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Love, what is this feeling? What is it like to fight every day for someone tirelessly? As much as we love someone, we never know that this is real love until we hear the sound of their laughter, see the sparkle in their eyes and hear the most beautiful sound of their voice.
I loved, loved, was loved and still love. It's hard to see or see or even feel but the wonders of the world are not always like the most intense and lasting winds we've ever felt in our lives, sometimes, that breath of a calm, fast, light wind that we barely realize has touched us. . This may be the closest touch to love we have, the closest touch is that touch of your parents' hug in the minutes after your birth. It is the purest, most sincere and most loving touch that we can ever feel in our entire lives from the first moment we are born until the end of our breath of life.
The most honest love in this world is that calmest feeling in the world and you made me feel that way, every moment, every day I made the same decision every day, I chose you. I chose you when I let you go, I chose you when I kept the most beautiful and perfect things you've ever given yourself to do for me. Yes, I chose you when I no longer had the strength to choose you, yet my answer remained you.
Today we have a different life, I made wrong choices in the way I acted out of impulsiveness because I was sad for not having you by my side anymore, I changed the way I act, the way I speak, talking about making decisions and all that change, as much as I didn't expect it of myself, still these changes weren't for the better. The world is too cruel and I was too for lack of control and for myself, I confess, I'm lost without you by my side and honestly it can go on for years I don't know how to be the same person I was one day, I know you don't can help me and that the only one who can is myself.
I know all this, but I still want to have you by my side as much as it doesn't seem like it, as much as I don't know how to express it. As my mother said today, how can I give you love and lightness if I didn't have it and you know I never had it. I was not and still am not, to be honest I never will be.. I am far from perfect. I lost you not for me, I lost you for choosing to lose you.
When we got to the point of loving someone so truly and purely and honestly, so did we get to the point of wanting you to go away to be happy because I learned today that as much as I had strong desires to make them happy, I have a life in which it is It's hard for me to be happy, I'm just passing through and I don't even know what to do while I'm here in the world, but I'm doing a lot of shit that if you knew you would be extremely disappointed. I'm totally, completely lost in the earth. Not knowing what to do, how to do, what to think, how to think, how to act and what attitude or decision to take. I know, I know it's frustrating, but I never said that my life isn't or wouldn't be one day, what I want to say is that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for leaving you alone, I'm sorry for not taking care of you, I'm sorry I didn't give you everything you deserved and always will in life, I'm sorry for not supporting you when you needed it most, I'm sorry I insisted on a something that will never have a fresh start or a beginning that you both liked, I'm sorry I didn't participate in all your good and bad times, I'm sorry for every wrong choice I made for you to act the way you're acting now, I'm sorry for everything .
I promised you I would root for you even from afar and you know what I'm rooting for you everyday, but know that I can't go on without you. I can't make life work the way we used to, everything got out of control and the only one to blame for this is me and only me. So I'm sorry for not showing you the love you've been waiting for, nor showing the love you so deserved to have in your whole life.
Goodbye Or A Great New Beginning For Us!
Even if you ignore me, block me, forget me, listen to other people. I will keep waiting for you, I will keep loving you unconditionally, I will keep waiting for your answer no matter how harsh it is I will forever wait for a message from you and wait for you.
End! Until someday my guardian angel and may the rays that follow you today, may the same rays make you shine and make every dream you have.
I have never written anything as honest and in my own words as I am writing it now. And I will say the same thing I said to the only person who writes many years ago. Until I find my one and only love, you will be the last person I write about my feelings for in my entire life. (Now you know why I have write block)
_ I don't want to love anyone but you, remember this phrase for the rest of your life_
kisses sir <3
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