Kill you off

I didn't mean to do this. I didn't mean to kill you. I needed to. You needed to die so I could survive. I'm sorry they did this to us, but I'd rather me suffer through it rather then you. I wish it didn't have to be this way. I don't even know why I'm writing this to you. You aren't gonna read it. I wish they never did this to us. I'm sorry kiddo. -older self