The lies she tells...

The lies she tells to get what she wants. They hurt, they cut deep into my skin and through the bone. I feel as tho her love is loath. Im tired. They hurt so much i cant take it. She says she loves me but why does she seem to fake it? I may never understand the lies she tells me. But all i know is that my heart is full of envy. I cant leave her. I cant lose her. Unlike her i actually do truly love her. Thats the truth and always has and always will be. I wish i could get over her and runaway from those lies. Why? just Why does she always seem to lie. She tells me she misses me while shes kissing someone else. She tells me she wants me while shes on his lap. She tells me she needs me while shes texting someone else. Why does she lie like this to me? I wanna believe her but i just cant. She told me she was busy and couldnt come see me. But in reality she was having sex with another man. She tells me im the only one while shes on a trip away with him. She tells me and fills me with these lies and wont seem to stop. I want it to end but she just wont. I just cant stop my love for her. No matter all of the lies she tells..... So i ask again, Why the lies? Just tell me the truth.