the story of how i almost sabotaged my day

this whole year so far has been me trying to recalibrate...trying to figure out if i need to change my priorities or my schedule to be able to fit everything in that i want to.

every time i try to whittle things down to the bare minimum, that list becomes a foot long sandwich that i'm trying to eat all at once.

i think sometimes i set myself up for failure because if i'm honest, some of the tasks i decide to work on are things that i was never going to be satisfied with; so even though i've completed some of the tasks, completing them doesn't make me feel much better which makes the day feel like a waste, despite the fact that i didn't actually do nothing. 

for example, i almost decided to record vocals for a song that i've been working on but neglected to consider that i actually don't like the way i recorded the piano part (which is the backing track) for that song. logically, i should re record the piano part but my brain decided that it was okay to ignore that and that i should just record vocals anyway. 

IF I HAD DONE THAT, i would have recorded the vocals, only to rediscover that i didn't like the piano part and then i would have had a pity party because i would have wasted the day recording the vocals.

THANKFULLY, i talked with someone close and literally walked myself through this scenario and was able to reschedule how i was going to spend my time.

anyway, i guess i need to proof read my daily schedule so i can work out if my expectations are logical and if i have reason to believe that i'll be satisfied with my endeavors at the end of the day.

so much to do...so much to do. it's good, though. i'd be very sad if there was nothing left to do haha