no sleep ig...?

I am pretty tired atm but I really wanna watch either ddlc or sally face play through. I don't know why I want to so bad, I am legit so exhausted yet I really wanna do so. I guess considering I never watched them as a kid, which is quite strange considering I was obsessed with fnaf, fran bow, yandere simulator and many others as a kid. Just I guess I wanna catch up on stuff I had missed out on as a kid that are now becoming popular again. In a sense it may be me wanting to experience a feeling of my childhood again but with different stuff. You could say I miss my childhood, things seemed easier back then, yet I often had similar thoughts as the ones I have now. Just less intense and impacting as they are now. I didn't have as many things stressing me out, I had more motivation and I didn't have to worry about what I identify as nor what my sexuality may be. I didn't need to worry about my appearance and trying to impress people. Games have just always been an escape for me, there's so many stories, backgrounds of people and development. It's can be distraction to whatever may be going on in your own life. There's so many characters to choose who you like or dislike, and many you possibly look up to, wanting to be like. There's so much that can happen to the point where you are thinking so much and you get so involved. You try not to mess up and to do your best, so then your trying and using so much of your energy not to mess up. In a sense you could say it similar to real life, except you tend to get more involved in these things called video games considering they have more interesting things to offer. We use these games to portray ourselves as things we may want to be in reality but don't have the chance nor motivation to do. It can all be so confusing but i'm trying to put it in words as I can. I was just gonna make this a small thing to randomly post but damn I guess it has turned into this. Ah um goodnight