L + ratio + whitewashed + he doesn't want you

hey guys time to tell you abt my struggling romance life <3 so i've been into this guy right? and i had an ok relationship with him, oh and context btw i had no clue who this guy was until he sat next to me so like i found out abt him a few weeks ago and liked him right away, enough exposition, so i confess to him, it goes well and i get bored (realizing this is a reoccurring theme for when i make bad decisions) so i decide i'm gonna ask him out. basiclly i did and it didn't work out he was nice abt it tho so idk what to do now. it didn't hurt when he turned me down but the way he said it made me wanna sob bc it was a really sweet way to turn me down, like come on THAYT WAS SO NICE wish he was a prick fr 🙄. this was aslo a very fast paced situation like it took place over 2 weeks? from confession to asking out. anyways i just wanted to ramble abt this here ig nothing much going on in my life except that.