Sanrio

I've recently become infatuated with anything Sanrio after seeing a rose quartz shaped hello kitty gemstone on Esty I was going to buy it but decided against it after looking at the price.  The only problem I have with this new love of all (well almost all) things Sanrio is this issue I've been having ever since coming to the realization I'm a transgender male 2 years ago.  After realizing I'm transgender I started restricting myself from a lot of things because I had this very idiotic and honestly transphobic thought that "A real man wouldn't own that, or a real man wouldn't do that, or a real man wouldn't watch that" you get it I felt like I could not partake in certain things because it would not fit the societal expectations for my gender identity.  Don't get me wrong I've always held the belief that anyone can wear or do anything they want no matter their gender or pronouns and those pronouns should always be respected no matter what, but I always felt if I wanted my pronouns respected, I needed to act as stereotypically male as possible which leaves me feeling very depressed because I enjoy femininity, but I feel like I can't partake in it only watch other people who are actually comfortable with how they present themselves enjoy it.