Venting

I just need to vent for a minute. I guess it’s not really venting but whatever. I have just been feeling so off and so blah lately. I’ve started cosplay and it was going great for awhile and I was consistent with posting on my Instagram but I haven’t been making as much content for it. I just feel like I’m lost and struggling to keep my footing and then I feel like I have to make others happy so I put that first. Like most women do. But I don’t know how to put me first without causing issues with others because I have ALWAYS been a people pleaser. And I’m just tired of being a people pleaser but I enjoy pleasing people. I don’t know. Maybe I’m overthinking. Maybe I just need to stop, think and start over and actually make a plan. I’m a wing it type of person. But I want to be more of a planner. Idk. I’m rambling. And I need to go back to work. Okay. That’s it. Bye.