Blog Upd8 3 (2/14/2022)

So, I just got done giving my speech for my speech class. I did fairly well, I got an 89 on it, nearly an A. But for some reason I still feel like I didn't do good enough. Well, maybe that's not it, but rather I just don't feel like I'm good enough in general. I hate this feeling of numbness and boredom. Even games and YouTube aren't fun anymore. But I keep playing them in hopes that maybe I'll find something to give me even a momentary distraction from that empty feeling. I'm waiting for my English class to start, so I figured I would write something just to keep this up to date. I think this is the first time that I've actually kept a record of my life for more than 2 days in a row. Maybe it's because this is on the computer and is easy to access, I dunno. I stayed up all night so I wouldn't miss that speech class, since it's an 8AM, and I've been nearly late to that class a few times already. So now I'm tired, mostly. Maybe that's why I've been feeling so empty. I was also able to finish my rough draft of my argumentative essay. I kind of resent my topic now. I'm not passionate about it, I just wanted to see if I was better than other kids for only watching PBS as a kid. I don't know how I'm supposed to shit out a 1,000-word essay about something that I don't really care about, but I'll have to, since its 20% of my grade for some fucking reason and I'm supposed to have the final copy done by the end of the week.