2/10/22

kind of an overstatement tbh. i have a math test monday-- no idea what is going on. i have a human midterm due tuesday. i have a chem test friday. also no idea what's going on. i'll make it through. it'll be fine. i'll be fine. i'm at the point in the year where i stop caring about grades. probably a bad attitude to have.

it was warm out today. insane. it's crazy windy out, which. WHATEVER. but i can't wait for it to start warming up and i'm not unmotivated anymore. literally the only thing keeping me going. that and this fun little album called almost here. massive reccomendation if anyone cares for it. i'm currently listening to boxing day by car seat headrest. I am obsessed with keeping time in a box. i record everything that happens in my life so i don't forget. i don't think it's unhealthy. i can't see why. 

i need another book to read. a lot of modern books are the bitchiest thing in the world to me, oh my god, shut the fuck up, i don't need another gay side character, that's LAME. i also hate high fantasy. fun fact. just finished bunny by mona awad the other day, holyy shit. it's insane. such a good read. a little fucked up but whatever. super introspective. i sound like a douche. 

i've literally started listening to music while i walk through the hallways at school. i know. it's so funny though. tired of sex is a current favorite hehe. 

i think i have a crush on one of my friends. whatever the fuck that means anymore. she's got other guys to worry about. 

i need an electric guitar i am literally obsessed with it. why are all fenders so ugly? they all come in weird ass ugly colors and i don't know why. can i just get a red guitar?? is that so hard to ask for?? i think the cherry ones are pretty cool, and so are the beige ones. i don't know i suck ass at guitar so i won't be getting one for a while. plus they're expensive as shit. but that's what i'm looking at now, a cherry or beige telecaster. opinions? 

more song recs:

moshi moshi - brand new

kiss me, son of god - they might be giants

checkmarks - the academy is...

mr grieves - the pixies

gyroscope - the dismemberment plan