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to all the lovely relationship professionals on this website, I NEED HELP!!
this is also just a rant i guess because none of my irls have my spacehey, feel free to ignore.
so i have a girlfriend, and i love her. i think. "love" for me has always been complicated. it's always been some weird and obsessive infatuation with someone (i have a whole list of mental illnesses that make romance insanely difficult). never has it actually been "love." but this time, i do think i love her. i let down a lot of personal walls for her.
but here's the issue. lately she's practically been driving me crazy. she never talks to me, but she talks to her best friend 24/7 and tells him everything. this wouldn't make me so upset if she talked to me on a regular basis about ANYTHING. she somehow makes friends with everyone i hate?! she's constantly letting these toxic assholes step all over her and control her. just a month ago (2 weeks before we started dating) she wanted to cut me off and had her friends telling her to do so (they hate me for god knows what reason).
THIS ISN'T EVEN THE WORST PART.
TW! a month later, we start dating. she was hesitant to tell her friends- but eventually got to it. AND THEY THREATENED SUICIDE IF SHE DIDN'T "FIX" IT?
now she's back with them. she takes forever to be honest about anything, she avoids any form of confrontation with me, we talk a total of MAYBE two times per day. even though im with her for maybe an hour and a half everyday? she's constantly leaving me for other people. i don't understand. she texts me every once in a while to tell me i can talk to her about anything. i get that, everyone says it.
my needs in terms of a relationship are definitely more demanding than most others (i'm sure a lot of you can understand that). romance is already hard enough for me. my friends (who 90% of the time like me) leave me if i reject them, romantically. plus i can't even begin to understand the emotion regardless. she understands that i deal with a lot, but i just wish she would understand that this is tearing me apart.
if you made it this far, thank you for reading. :) at least someone listens to me.
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iDog
this is just my opinion but this all just sounds toxic as hell and like she values other ppl a lot more than she values you :( I know romance is hard for you and you feel like she may be finally the one that you've fallen in love with but that doesn't mean you have to put yourself through all that BS, not worth
omg thank you so much for your input... you don't know how much it really means to me :')
a big part of me wants to leave, but i'm so attached to her. i've known her for years now. i've been counting down a few days. if she doesn't at least talk to me about SOMETHING within that time, i'm going to confront her about everything and MAYBE leave by that time. i'm really trying to prepare myself. again, thank you for your input!!
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