FRIENDS

school... i was off for a few days cuz most teachers were off with covid but im going back tomorrow and i just... ugh

im not doing terribly, i just have no friends my age at school. NONE. its horrible i have friends who are younger than me through my sister and theyre fine but god. UGH. i get bulled a bit for being 'the quiet kid' BUT IM NOT!!!! IM NOT QUIET its just I HAVE NO ONE TO BE LOUD WITH.............. AND IT SUCKS.

all of the queer people in my year make me uncomfortable cuz theyre all friends with this one person who was really gross around me.

and there arent any neurodivergent people in my year that id happily be around CUZ EVERYONE WHO ISNT QUEER IS HORRIBLE. ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE i could go on but i wont but its just so bad. hell on earth

anyway. I ONLY HAVE ONE FRIEND MY AGE and she goes to a different shool and her parents hate me :( we meet up sometimes though and thats always good :) i just cant help feeling lonely, though... i have a great relationship with my sister shes my best friend but:( it sucks only having 2 people you can really rely on... i would settle for internet friends but everytime ive bothered having an actual connection it always went to shit so after years of it going wrong then whats the point :(