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Blog nearly a whole month later!! I'm not so great at this am I, i try i try. Many things on the brain lately so here I am, this might be all over the place but it's okay.〔´∇｀〕
I've been feeling so weird!! The concept of days is nearly non existent now, I'm just goin through them. Everything feels so hazy, both mentally and physically. Actually, I've been having constant headaches and feeling nauseous. Emotionally loopy. I can't tell if I'm at some sort of near-breaking point or just tryna get over a steep hill heh.
I've always been a very "keep to myself and act grounded" sort of person, and I'm way too embarrassed to act certain ways that don't match my appearance but recently I just really want to be dumb! I wish I looked different so badly. I wish I could open up.
I've been very fixated on the idea of learning to skateboard, I very much blame sk8 the infinity for that. But aside from it being an anime thing, it looks really fun! I actually got a skateboard many years ago but was never brave enough.
A big reason I don't do things is because I wish I had someone that would spontaneously want to do dumb things like that with me. I'm an awkward introvert that wants to be hyper and stupid, so it never really works out when I try to be that person haha. A platonic version of "being swept off my feet" sounds really nice.
I've been very fixated on the idea of learning to skateboard, I very much blame sk8 the infinity for that. But aside from it being an anime thing, it looks really fun! I actually got a skateboard many years ago but was never brave enough.
A big reason I don't do things is because I wish I had someone that would spontaneously want to do dumb things like that with me. I'm an awkward introvert that wants to be hyper and stupid, so it never really works out when I try to be that person haha. A platonic version of "being swept off my feet" sounds really nice.
I find that 95% of the day I spend daydreaming about being an ideal version of myself in ideal situations.
Songs I want my life to sync vibes with:
Yuuri - Infinity
Songs I want my life to sync vibes with:
Yuuri - Infinity
Home Made Kazoku - Thank You!!
Fujii Kaze- Kaerou
Fujii Kaze- Kaerou
dysmorphia has been coming for me really hard lately! Which is, super odd because it's not usually that bad, I internally chanted "I'm boy!!" earlier and it was just silly enough to make me feel a bit better.
Trying to find a way to describe my current chest feeling and maybe it would be "Tiny little digital pet from the 90's in a tiny little room with a set of tiny little coded things it can do. "
hmm
I don't ever want to fall in love again.
wawawawawaaaaa that's all? for now! ヾ(*ㅿ*๑)ﾂ
wawawawawaaaaa that's all? for now! ヾ(*ㅿ*๑)ﾂ
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