like a thing ig

i have bad memory and for other reasons this will help.

so today was alright: slept-call with my boyfriend and woke up at 11 am. i didn't do much, and i like that i don't really have to do anything. i went to see him and that was a lot of fun. things felt normal again. but i had a realization within myself and that was that i felt lost. i did not feel like myself for a while and i don't know why. i felt meaner, and i wanted to be kinder. i am also quite tired. dunno.

i got a playboy bunny costume. i felt really cute. i can never really express that kind of thing to my family, so it's a secret right now.

i really am tired but i feel satisfied. 

i got scared at the end because 1) i went too fast on a twisty road and 2) im pretty sure there was a drunk guy on the road.

that's really it.

i have moments of inspiration that twinkle like fireworks. it's a bit sad. i want to do something productive, but it's hard.

thats all really.