The finale of the dark era

So I don't really have much to touch up here I don't think. The thing is you probably think you didn't tell us EVERYTHING. Well this EVERYTHING IS probably shit you don't give a shit about. Like do you want me to tell you step by step why I got denied Medicaid a few time? No? Thought so! Also why I didn't apply this year? No why would you give a shit about that? Because you don't the thing is I'm okay now. I got my problems fixed and I'm seriously glad that I got that court order to induce and force help. Otherwise I don't know where I would be. I could also tell you about the time how disturbed I was way before we moved into that ''old house'' how I saw what the brain eating disease effected my dad's Mom at 87 and the look on her face when she died in her nursing bed. How mentally disturbed spiritualty and mentally I felt inside a nursing home. I could go on and on but this is enough. I feel some things are better kept myself because you just don't need to keep hearing me nagging on and on and on and on and by then I would've typed out Tara's history book. But all I got to say is if anyone on here is a nursing home worker. Props to you. Because you need mental strength of an Ox and a heart of steel to work here. But I don't think anyone or anyone on this planet wants me to make a Tara's life book that should be kept private. I should also state speaking of family my Mother's mom is dead I've zero grandmas. Even though I found out my my Mom's Mother apparently called me retarded. My aunt told me in the car the one that her teeth feel out she told me did you know your grandma Ethel told your parents and when your parents picked you up from watching you that Ethel told your parents that do you know that your child is retarded? Also please don't ask me why she said this. I never asked her at all she was just randomly ranting in the car. When she is on pain pills because of her bad back she acts weird and I even asked my sister about this behavior and she goes she knows our aunt is a different person on pain pills. Anyway back on the topic. Then shortly after that she told me  that is when my dad was bound to prove to the family that you weren't retarded and I don't know why he did all the doctors thought I had ADHD for 10 years straight and dumb doctors thought ADHD meds will cure my Autism if I had any and I was misdiagnosed. I go no I had no idea my grandma Ethel said that and my aunt goes. True story she said that because I was there I had to go pick something at the house while your parents pulled up in the driveway. This effected my psyche level for a week till I brushed that off. But I will say thought that I could also talk about how anti gay my family is except my sister because everyone is brainwashed by the bible my teeth fell out aunt thinks Satan created this virus and when people die from the virus that Satan walked the street and someone got touched by his claws and died and when this virus is over a new Jesus will be born. WTF? My other aunt swears there is an angel dancing on her street. WHAT THE LIVING FUCK DID THIS BIBLE DO TO MY AUNTS? Anyways enough is enough right? I think this is more than enough insight to tell you why I act the way I do and why I'm this way today. If this doesn't speak to you or gives you any reason or right to tell you that this isn't a good enough reason to act the way I do today then you're fucked up.