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the whole day she was talking to me and saying how she feels so shitty at the school she works at. how she feels like they treat her like a child and how she KNOWS about the shit they say about her. i felt so fucking bad. she was crying and im terrible at comforting people? 

shes so nice. she loves children and loves her job but they treat her so shitty and it makes ME feel shitty, and makes me feel like it reflects badly on me because i started at that school. is that selfish? she kept saying that she really appreciates me and that i am really "an angel in her life and in the schools" (her words) but it makes me fucking sick to my stomach you know?

i dont feel like a i deserve that. im a shitty person. imterrible and awful and ugly. but i hate when other people feel that way about themselves. i dont know. i just want her to feel okay. i gave her my number and told her i could watch her daughter on the weekeneds if she ever needed me too. i told her i would always be just a phone call away because i really do care about her and i really do what her to be happy.

it makes me so fucking angry. it makes me so angry,