I hate having a job

I hate that I'm gonna say this but yeah, I don't want a job. I love being a youtuber. I love making videos. I love making VTuber content. But sadly, people don't care about me. I've been doing this for nearly 15+ years now. No one buys my etsy stuff, no one watches my youtube, no one talks to me, the only interaction I get is when I post on Spacehey and Facebook on my 2nd profile now. I have been purposely interacting with my main page (Tarrabyte) for nearly 2 months to get my followers up and to make some kind of impact. 

And for what btw? micro rant in the middle:
Why the fuck is it that I See the DUMBEST shit on youtube and facebook getting MILLIONS of views and people have told me I make good content but then no one comes to watch my work. So who's fault is that? Do I make good content or are people lying to me to make me feel good? I really hate that btw. Stop giving shitting media attention if it's shitty. 

I've been posting all my sims videos to my page vs youtube cause fuck youtube at this point. I'm hoping by mid nov I'll be getting paid by facebook and from what it sounds like, it's pretty easy. 

Why do I hate having a normal job?

It's not because I'm lazy, it's not because I can't get up and go, it's not because I'm bad at it, it's that every fucking time I get a job, I have some boss with his head up his ass who has no idea what he's doing, constantly micromanaging, acting like he does no wrong, then when you ask 1 question he becomes a dick. 

I've got several stories of different managers. 

Not to mention, the dreaded first few weeks IF I can stay at all. I have been fired within a few days of being at a job. I ask why and they say, "I just don't like you" and that's that. Yes, they can say it and is it fair? No. 

I fucking hate working for some corporate shill over-lording asshole. 

I love sewing, writing, making videos, doing all sorts of things, but no one fucking cares. I could EASILY publish a book and not a single person here would give 2 shits. I've been working on a novel for almost 20 years. Yes, that's a long time and I know but life and shit got in my way. I really do want my work out there and I love my work. 

It's not that I don't want a job, it's that I just don't wanna go through the same bullshit over and over and over again. I wanna stay some place. I've had 3 interviews in the last month. 2 for Walmart, 1 for the warm line. I would love it. Even my mother said I would be good at the warm line. I talk to people and make them feel better. 

I doubt anyone here will follow me on my pages anyway. I'll keep posting tho.