:(

Man I don't know, I'm been struggling so hard lately, like extra hard. I've been in it for years, but this year really sucks.

I'm having troubling remembering things, liking things, continuing things. I've got no will and passion. 

I now look back I never really did but atleast I tried, now my will to try diminishes by the second.

My environment really sucks the life out of me it's almost amazing, it's on real time scientific research material.

I wonder if maybe it's not me at all actually but them you know?

I wonder if not for them I wouldn't live like this.

I wonder if not for them I wouldn't want to die.

Fuck I hope reincarnation is real, I would live the fuck out of life then (hoping its better than now, I mean...what could be worse right now?).