still figuring shit out i guess

still dont know what the fucking im doing and like most things im searching the internet for answers. always been the type to try and figure everything out myself but damn, this brain has zero power left. currently stuck between "why do my parents hate me when ive spent the last 22 years killing the part of myself that is fucking amazing to try and be perfect in their eyes" and "fuck them and anyone who treats me like shit and i don't need anyones approval"