life

I blogged on here about maybe a week ago or something like that. I got to go my parents house, paint my room pink (isn't finished but is already looking so cute), I got to see my friends which was really nice. I came back to where I'm living after visiting with my parents (I live with my boyfriend now and his two friends). living here is the nightmare you would imagine. They don't know how to stay clean or clean up after themselves, bathroom is a mess, trash all around the house and especially where they play mtg. sometimes I think to myself, why am I even here? It's gross, I miss home and my friends and more. I was on the phone with my mom a few days ago and was talking about a bunch of stuff when I mentioned it felt like I had been living here for 6 months or longer, ive only been here for 3 MONTHS!!! which is crazy cause it feels like soooo much longer (my mom said that was a bad thing). but idk, I just have thoughts about moving out way more often and I'm afraid to talk to my bf about it because I don't want it to seem like I moved out here with him for nothing yk? besides that, ive been trying to get my diploma for quite some time now and I find online school a lot harder than going in person, going in person is so much easier and I would have more friends. life just kinda sucks rn overall but oh well