Exes

she's only person actually apologized few times for hurting me, she's the only person actually used effort to pulled me back, actually wanted the relationship to not breaking, the problem is that, she just keep hiding shit to herself and i hate that much, feels like i'm not trust worthy or someshit, she keeps hiding what makes she so sad and that actually the reason for us to parted away, she did it again, she not replying, unknowingly mad at me for WEEKS, i can't even communicate normally with her no matter how i tried ( i tried real hard) i knew she was onto some shit, some problems some big obstacles, but she just not telling me at all, and how i can help someone if i barely even know their problems? after weeks of mindlessly worrying for her, i was tired, i knew something's off with her and i just can't keep doing this anymore, i was exhausted, so i said "we need to break up" that is the first time i decided to break up with someone and it was not easy, not even 2 years later. when i said so she was....mad, she mad and said that i don't care about her, that i kept saying she's not loving me, and bla bla, she was very.....angry, and sad, it's feel like she realized she...actually lost and not knowing what to do, even 2 years later i still do not know the reasons behind that all, i just know that break up hurst like hell, the previous 2 exes assume they just scratch a little, this one feels like someone chopped my head off

she's only person actually apologized few times for hurting me, she's the only person actually used effort to pulled me back, actually wanted the relationship to not breaking, the problem is that, she just keep hiding shit to herself and i hate that much, feels like i'm not trust worthy or someshit, she keeps hiding what makes she so sad and that actually the reason for us to parted away, she did it again, she not replying, unknowingly mad at me for WEEKS, i can't even communicate normally with her no matter how i tried ( i tried real hard) i knew she was onto some shit, some problems some big obstacles, but she just not telling me at all, and how i can help someone if i barely even know their problems? after weeks of mindlessly worrying for her, i was tired, i knew something's off with her and i just can't keep doing this anymore, i was exhausted, so i said "we need to break up" that is the first time i decided to break up with someone and it was not easy, not even 2 years later. when i said so she was....mad, she mad and said that i don't care about her, that i kept saying she's not loving me, and bla bla, she was very.....angry, and sad, it's feel like she realized she...actually lost and not knowing what to do, even 2 years later i still do not know the reasons behind that all, i just know that break up hurst like hell, the previous 2 exes assume they just scratch a little, this one feels like someone chopped my head off

being overthinked, is a curse, because i was always prepared for her to cheat on me, how i couldn't since i'm an overthinker and the previous 2 relationships? i was almost always prepared for her to cheat on me, to break up bc she was bored, always prepared and always thinking and that is painful as fuck

not that i didn't believed her, i just don't believe love overall