introduction + rant 0_0

Hii so im uhmm Spenzerr and this is my uhh blog. it feels a bit pointless since i know nobody is going to see it but this is more for me haha. 

honestly i’ll probably just be ranting in every entry. like right now i just wanna ramble so uhhh thats what im gonna do :)

so like,, idk how to say all of this without sounding.. well.. stereotypical but its just so hard being a teenager right now. 

I dont know anyone who likes the same things i really like at the moment. like obviously my bsf shares a ton of fandoms with me (juno ilysm <3) and so does my other bsf but like… theyre all fandoms im NOT that into anymore. 

its lame. everythings so lame. its so hard trying to find people who like the same things as me. Like,, i have trouble using social medias most people my age use like instagram, tiktok, snapchat, well tiktok especially. i get banned everytime i try and make an account on that godforsaken app oh my god. but i digress, i prefer using things like.. well- SPACEHEY and scratch and forums. the only PROBLEM is its so hard finding websites like that that arent.. DEAD!!

 and it really sucks because i feel ive been getting more confident too! like, i used to be deadly terrified of even MAKING an account on some website but BOOM look at me now im joining discord servers and uhhh… well the socializing part i need work on. 

anyways- sometimes i wish i was born earlier. obviously i KNOW it wasnt all sunshine lolipops and rainbows in the 2010s but it just looks so much better than the life i have now. i hate the modern world and i hate saying that i hate the modern world because well- i dont have experience in the 2010s. my mum was 18 in 2013 so i feel ill always be jealous of her. i could always ask her what life was like then. oh well.