Whenever i put on makeup

I feel like im putting up a new identity, a new way of covering me and locking me up

I'm not saying I "don't like it", i do and a lot! It helps me express myself in a more artistic way and Im really thankful for that and that I have the resources to do so.

But what I don't like is the fact that I feel dependent on it to feel pretty, to feel valuable or simple someone

I feel like im incapable of being human without some kind of mask called make up on my face

I'm incapable of being pretty, handsome, or to put it bluntly, likeable without it

I made a whole persona with it that whenever I don't have it I feel naked, like I've lost everything that would make me someone and I feel sososo ugly it's not even funny

Thanks for reading this crap, love you xx