i’m being sabotaged #forreal

oh my DAYS……………… guys i am so frustrated

i need to calm down. so i’m yelling about it on spacehey

i’ve already punched up my bed but i don’t feel any better………… sigh 

it’s like………… omg i just need to rant

like i’ve been hanging out my friends like normal right

(cherry goat JUST came back to school today. i was so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!)

but it’s like…………… whenever i get close with one of them it’s like my blueberry goat suddenly has a problem with it

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i already said it but she was mad at raspberry because she was only asking me out to go to wherever with her. but like SO WHAT

like it’s actually getting to the point where i’m starting to enjoy hanging out with raspberry more than i do with blueberry. because we ACTUALLY talk about stuff

with blueberry it’s the same three fucking topics again and again and again. like i don’t CARE about your tiktok crush and i DON’T want to talk about him for the THIRD TIME IN A DAY!!!!!!!!

(i feel like it should be okay for me to get a little frustrated about that. it’s been like that for freaking months i actually can’t)

also it doesn’t help that i have a fat crush on raspberry right now. that’s probably why i like hanging out with her so much

and another thing. i was walking with cherry to her lesson because i had a free

and blueberry showed up and walked with us too. that’s literally fine

blueberry’s class was at the far end of the school and cherry’s class was just in the middle

and i was walking with her because she kind of didn’t know where her classroom is + she felt sick right

but then when we got to the building where cherry’s class is i started going inside with her. while blueberry was carrying on 

and she looked at me and did that hand thing (you know the one. where they mean like ‘come over here’ or something)

(it was loud so she couldn’t talk to me)

and i shook my head and pointed at cherry (because i didn’t know HOW to say that i had to go with her)

(but i feel like i SHOULD’VE been assumed……… like if i started walking her to her class then why on earth would i not finish it)

anyways. blueberry gave me a look (and to be fair i DIDN’T have my glasses on. and couldn’t exactly see her properly because of my janky eye) but after it i was thinking ‘……what the he’ll’

it’s just like. am i allowed to do anything here???? jesus christ

huff. i just don’t like how she treats me like she OWNS me

like

????????

sigh. if i go to school tomorrow and something like this happens again i’m straight up eating a table

24/9/26